Some books make a really big impression on readers. Sometimes it’s hard to say everything you want in a spoiler-free review. When that happens, sometimes you need to go in depth into the story and rant about something good or bad.
Warning: The following post contains spoilers. If you haven’t read If I Stay (If I Stay #1) by Gayle Forman, you might want to check out my spoiler-free review instead.
I mentioned in my review that I only cried in two spots: when Mia had visitors. I didn’t mention anything else about the visits in my review because I thought it might be spoilery. But I read this almost a month ago, and I still keep thinking about Mia’s grandfather’s visit, and what he said to her. And it makes me want to cry all over again.
His decision to tell Mia that it was okay for her give up and die if she wanted was so moving. He was obviously thinking of her, what she was going thorough, and what would happen if she woke up. It’s not often that someone can think about a loved one in a way that is solefully about that person, and is not selfish in any way. Obviously he wanted her to stay and wake up, but he could objectively see why she might not want to, and he wanted to absolve her of the need to stay for anyone other than herself.
It was so moving, and touching to know that he loved her that much, and could still give her a chance to choose what was best for herself. It just breaks my heart, and makes me cry.
In a weird way, it almost made me want Mia to choose to die. I was a little let down by the ending. I was hoping for a complete non-happy ending with her death, because it would still have been satisfying. Am I alone in thinking this?